Here I am, up at 3am again. This makes it the third night in a row that I’ve woken up around that time because the thrush is making my throat so dry and painful. Maybe it’s the steroid I’m on for nausea (dexamethasone) but once I’m up, I can’t get back to sleep. I’m lucky enough to have never really had insomnia, so I’m having all kinds of new experiences this week!

Good news from chemo yesterday: my blood work is all still normal, at least in terms of immunity (kidney and other functions have to be sent out to the lab). I’d been a little worried about it, so I’m glad to hear my body is still looking out for me!

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